The Big 39

It's August 4th and I'm officially 364 days from turning 40... As each year goes by, time seems to go by faster and faster. As a child, time moved soooo slowly. It seemed like an eternity from birthday to birthday. I remember in particular waiting to turn 10 - double digits - a big deal at age 9. In kid time, that year seems like 10 years... I always wondered why as you got older that time seemed to move faster and after much thought on the subject, it's really just a matter of fractions. When you're 9 years old, each year you've been in existence is 1/9th of your lifespan. At 39, each year is 1/39th of your lifespan. In the grand scheme of things, a year in relative time at age 39 appears much shorter than a year in relative time at age 9. Being somewhat of a numbers geek, this makes total sense to me. I've tried to explain that to my children when they're anticipating that last of school for example. It doesn't matter how many days are left in the school year, that last day of school always seems like some far off day that will never come. But they are 9 and 10... and their relative time is still too big of a fraction to comprehend.

So this is day one of my blog... As you can see from the title I am 39 and I am pregnant. My husband and I found out a few weeks ago and I'm nearing the end of my first trimester. This is my third child and my husband's first. Life is a lot different this time around, which is why I've started this blog... I think partly for my own sanity... and partly because I've got some great back stories I'd like to share... I've had an interesting yet challenging life and have learned many lessons along the way. Being pregnant at this age, makes you reflect, how can you not? I am a different person than I was 11 years ago when I was pregnant with my first child. Since then I've experienced divorce, my ex-husband's remarriage, my remarriage (which required involvement from the INS), life as a full-time working mother, a frequent traveling working mother, and learning how to navigate corporate life while still maintaining some semblance of a work/life balance. My hope is that one day my children can read this blog and get some understanding into how they have changed my life in such a positive and enriching fashion… and hopefully gain some insight into their mother that will help them understand me as a woman.